Thank you for your question. You have graciously offered
your situation that, although different in specific details,
is still typical of what many people are experiencing, and
answers they are looking for.
Your point of reference is "having it all." And you
define "all" as a range of things from better quality
relationships to more money in the bank. In other words,
you look at your current life and want to make it better.
What you are trying to improve is something you created,
intentionally: first, as a hiding place for your power so
that you could stay in the human; second, so that you could
have the precise experiences you have described.
You are not lazy or incompetent. You are not powerless
or of limited means. Quite the contrary, you have used the
fullness of your power, creativity and ingenuity to bring
into being the very circumstances you are complaining about.
And, right there in the situations you are complaining about is the
power you have used to make the situations seem real. In
other words, the situations that you find so disagreeable
are the disguises for your power.
The life you are describing is something you made up.
That life seems real only because you, as the God Presence,
are so powerful, you can make an illusion seem real.
You ask, "Why would I do such a goofy thing?" Consider
this. You are living in a totally idyllic setting. All is
harmonious, beautiful, peaceful and abundant. For the fun
of it, you decide to explore a life opposite to your
accustomed experience.
Because you are so powerful, you require a "reality" so
extreme that it will capture your full attention. You have
to admit that you accomplished this goal.
Maintaining this made-up "reality" is no small feat. You
have developed very clever ruses to keep yourself away from
the places you hid your power.
Let's go back over your question and look at it in terms
of my comments so far. In the preamble to your question,
you state that you are entranced by my story of
transformation, and have received great comfort and
inspiration from my books and other similar ones.
What you are saying is that the truth of what you have
read resonates within you yet you do not see that truth in
evidence in your life. The missing piece is the intentional
hiding of the truth, the power, and the abundance that is
your natural and true state. Your response to this piece,
in your question, is to ask for the "how to" find the hiding
places and reclaim the power.
You are correct in your observation that the "how to" is
not included. This is because the process for opening to
our power can be explained in writing, but the explanation
does not afford the reader the actual experience of opening.
The explanation is the preparation for the actual experience.
Remember, hiding and keeping hidden the Power of the God
Presence that you are has required all your ingenuity,
creativity, inspiration, patience and perseverance. You
have intentionally created the equivalent of a very
complicated maze.
Can you appreciate what a major undertaking this hiding
process is? Can you sense how strong your commitment has to
be to replace the truth with an illusion and then make the
illusion seem totally real for an extended time? Can you
feel the power -- your power -- that you have focused
incessantly to make limitation seem real. Can you appreciate
that what seems like power outside of you -- government,
economic conditions, tyrants and diseases -- are your power
made to seem like it is outside of you?
Commitment and appreciation go together. We do not
commit to something until we appreciate the extent of the
gift we are giving ourselves in making the commitment. Your
appreciation for what it has taken to create the
circumstances you are complaining about is much greater than
you are aware of.
You are wearing your self-deprecation as a badge of
honor. This is akin to a rock star proudly espousing his
"unsavory" past.
You give yourself the gift of reclaiming your power when
your appreciation for your true Self exceeds your
appreciation for your depreciated self.
Everything you experience is your marvelous creation.
Self-deprecation is a remarkable creation. In your attempt
to devalue yourself by judging your creation, you are being
very clever in keeping the creation alive.
Again, can you see how brilliant you are? That
brilliance is your Infinite Intelligence and It is guiding
you at all times. You are always having the perfect
experience. And, one experience is not "better" than
another: opening to the fullness of your power is not better
than keeping the power hidden.
As to the question whether there are people who have
opened to the fullness of their power and recognize that
they are the creators of their lives, the answer is yes.
Enter the spiritual coach: someone who has opened to the
power and enjoys supporting others in that opening. One of
the reasons the spiritual coach is able to provide this
level of support is that he/she has no emotional attachment
to the issues being faced by the person being coached
As a lawyer, you know that you cannot represent yourself
in a legal matter as effectively as a lawyer who has no
emotional attachment to the issues being evaluated.
In the spiritual coaching process, the client's role is
to be free to experience his disguises as real; the coach's
role is to look at these experiences as information as to
where and how the client has hidden his/her power.
The spiritual coach sees the client in the fullness of
his/her power. The client uses the power coming from the
coach as a reference point -- a mirroring of his/her own
power. With that reference point, the client goes into
his/her disguises and retrieves the energy (power) hidden
there.
There is a factor to be aware of: disguises are loaded
with discomfort to make sure that we stay away from them.
When the client approaches the disguises, he/she has trained
him/herself to back off. If you read through your question,
you will find that it is filled with the disguises you have
created -- limited ability to create money, frustration,
failure, embarrassment, helplessness and a lot of
self-deprecation.
What brings the client and the coach together? The
answer is an inner motivation felt by the client that draws
the coach to him/her. What keeps the client motivated to go
into disguises that seem so uncomfortable they are, at
times, painful just to contemplate? The answer is an
appreciation for him/herself that is experienced as a
willingness to do whatever it takes to open to the fullness
of his/her power.
We are all the Power and Presence of God, in full
abundance and joyfulness, right here and right now.
Whatever seems otherwise is a disguise we have created.
When the truth of this statement feels compelling to you,
you know you are ready to do whatever it takes to have this
be your reality in the human.