Your
natural state is peace, harmony, vitality and
abundance. You are the Power and Presence of
God. You are missing nothing. You certainly
don't work to achieve these.
The part you are missing is that you have had to disguise
who you really are and hide your power to be able to come
into the human and play here. The human game is, by
definition, a game of limitation, a game opposite to who and
what we really are.
Creating the human game and playing it as though it is
real is an extraordinary accomplishment. Seen from
this perspective, your most self-supportive focus is on
appreciating what you have created, and appreciating your
Self as a brilliant creator.
You are not your creations. You are not this
limited being you are describing in your question. You
are an unlimited being who is the ultimate creator.
The reason for appreciating your creations, particularly
the ones you are complaining about, is that when you
diminish your creations, you diminish your Self as the
creator. As the Power and Presence of God every one of
your creations is magnificent. You can only create
magnificence because you cannot create unlike your Self.
Remember, your creations are not real. Poverty,
violence, anger and shame are all made up. They are
disguises for the unconditional love, peace, harmony and
abundance that you are.
I suggest reading The Journey for a more detailed
explanation. You will also find support by reading
prior answers to questions on this website. Just
scroll back.