I
saved up enough money to live on for six months and then
left my job in order to explore some new territory. However
I told my employer they could leave me on the books as a
casual employee if they needed me to fill in, but not to
count on me because I was planning on traveling. Well, one
day I went to lunch with a friend and we were talking about
money and it became apparent that I had linked money to
working for it. I wanted to be able to be open to receive
money without efforting. She asked me what my first memory
of money was and I said when I was 4 my dad left us and
wouldn't pay child support. At any rate as I was talking to
her the song "You don't know what it's like to love
somebody, to love somebody as much as I love you" by Michael
Bolton, started playing over the intercom. I started crying
thinking about my dad and I was feeling (I know how much you
emphasize feeling) it was ok to love my dad that deeply.
(He died in a drunk driving accident about 30 years ago.)
That day I went to check my mail and I had a direct deposit
slip from my employer with a full paycheck being deposited
in my account and I hadn't worked for it. I made the
connection that I had opened up my heart and this abundance
just came rushing in and also that I had allowed myself to
receive money without working for it. Here is my dilemma
-- I now have had three more direct deposits. I know in my
heart that all supply comes from God and I don't want to
block any avenues of abundance so I guess I just wanted your
opinion of this event. I did however take the action of
telling them to take me off the books as of yesterday.
On one hand I have a slight feeling of guilt about not
having worked for this money and a shadow of a feeling that
they may bust me and want it back and on the other hand I
know God is my source, not this employer, and I have to
acknowledge the coincidence that it occurred the same day I
opened the flow to loving my dad. I want to believe the
latter and have someone support me in that belief.
Am I nuts and just trying to justify keeping the money or
is this the way Universal Principles works?
p.s. About 10 years ago I had a similar experience where
I had a need and went to check my account balance and I had
$4000 more than I expected. (This also occurred after I had
forgiven someone and allowed love to flow through me.) It
was enough money to cover the need with some left over. I
never questioned where this money came from. I figured it
came from heaven. No one ever came after it. I guess I
just answered my own question but I still would love some
support helping me to live according to Universal Principles
rather than the thinking of the world.