Question:

You say to see & feel everything that comes to me as the perfect support. And when that support is uncomfortable, to locate the belief that interprets the situation in a limited way.

Also, you state that until there is deep appreciation for what I've already created, the energy in the creation stays where it is.

Help me move forward. I want to be beyond this point. I understand that this situation with my mother is supporting me, but how? My belief that interprets this situation in a limited way is that I feel obligated for my mother's happiness. How can I release myself from this belief? How do I let go? I can read your words, but how do I implement them? How do I effect change?

Whenever my mother calls, I have a gut wrenching reaction in the pit of my stomach. Since I won't let her control me anymore, she tries even harder to manipulate me again.

When I think of calling her just to make her happy, I can't. The panic & the terror wells up. I know if I call her, her manipulating will start all over again.

She says that I'm her child. I informed her that I'm her daughter, but I can't be her child. I'm an adult now. So now she calls me her baby & says that I'll always be her baby. I'm the oldest of 3.

At 24, I finally had the courage to leave home. I now have an adult daughter. And my mother told a relative that she never forgave me for leaving her. She had my father, my brother, relatives & friends, she wasn't alone.

I don't want anything to do with her. I visualize her being happy, healthy & enjoying her life.

I want to live my life, I don't want to live her life.

 

Answer:

The feeling you call "gut wrenching" is your power . Go into the feeling without the label you have placed on it -- "gut wrenching" -- and feel the energy in the feeling as your power -- the Power of God.

You hid the power under the disguise of the label so that you could have the precise experiences you have had and continue to have with your mother. These are all experiences in consciousness played out in the human based on beliefs you accepted that define your relationship with your mother.

However, you are free to redefine the relationship based on the truth of who you both are -- The Power and Presence of God.

I suggest you read THE JOURNEY for a more complete exposition of the process for transitioning from the human as a human experience to the human as a Soul experience.